Fuck You, Fuck Me

by Cynthia Ruth Lewis

I'm almost glad I gave my heart to you, asshole;

I'm almost glad you took me for a ride—

you really opened my eyes

I already had a bad attitude

when it came to men

but I took a chance on you

because you seemed so damned sincere,

but you ended up being

the worst one of them all

You stole what little faith I had left

and hung it out to dry

but I can't rightly say I hate you—

I hate myself more

for even falling for your shit

for giving you a chance

for stupidly thinking "maybe this time"....

for being hungry enough

to swallow your fucking bait

but it taught me a lesson;

one I won't easily forget

damn you

for stripping away my last shred of hope

damn me

for being foolish enough

to grab onto the frayed end of that fucking rope